Kate Moss’ half-sister, Lottie Moss, were given visibly emotional whilst candidly discussing her dependancy fight.
“I don’t even know where to start,” Lottie, 26, started in a long TikTok video on Monday, January 15, whilst wiping tears from her face. “I think it’s pretty important to talk about things. … But I really want to, like, be more open, talk about things on TikTok. I think it’s important for people to see that, like, life isn’t as shiny and bright as it is on social media.”
Lottie endured that she has struggled “so much” since she was once more youthful with melancholy and anxiousness in addition to “problems with addiction.”
“Becoming a model and being in that industry made it very difficult for me not to, you know, feel that way, and just sort of succumb to drugs and alcohol and things like that whenever I felt sad,” she mentioned. “And I’ve been in a habit of doing that for the rest of my life, up until now.”
Lottie has adopted in her stick insect sister’s footsteps. She was the face of Calvin Klein’s particular tablet assortment when she was once 16 years outdated in 2014 and landed her first duvet for Trend Paris on the age of 18. (Lottie and Kate, 50, proportion the similar father, Peter Moss.)
“I’ve gotten to a point where I don’t even like or know who I am,” she tearfully mentioned. “It’s just like, navigating your 20’s f–king sucks ‘cause you don’t even know what you’re meant to be doing, who you’re meant to be friends with. … At times you become someone that you don’t like, or know, or recognize. And I think I’ve gotten to that place today where I just, like, don’t know who I am.”
Lottie mentioned that upon getting a face tattoo and starting her OnlyFans account, she wondered whether or not the ones are issues she sought after to be doing or if she was once simply “rebelling” in opposition to the modeling business.
“I think I rebelled so hard away from an industry that made me sad at the time, because I was really sad at the time, and I just rebelled so hard away from being that person because I just was, like, so miserable being that person,” she mentioned, choking again sobs. “So then it’s like, who the f–k am I?”
Lottie endured that she feels “so alone” as a result of she’s remoted herself from individuals who cared. Even supposing she “should be so grateful” for some certain sides of her lifestyles, she doesn’t “feel happy in myself.”
She added that she’s 4 days sober and thinks it’s the most important a part of her restoration to submit on TikTok and stay herself “in check” or else she might “go off the rails.” Lottie ended by means of pronouncing that her sister “got [her] a lot of things,” and that “modeling and everything was such an amazing opportunity.”
“You can be grateful and still struggle, because that’s how I feel,” Lottie concluded in her message. “Like, I’m very grateful for everything that’s happened in my life but … mental illness f—king sucks.”
She captioned her submit, “I hope this finds the right side of TikTok and people can relate to this feeling of being lost.”